Starting To Love My Body More

Used my anger today to really get a good work out.   Walked 3 miles to get my frustration out over a comment made on my Facebook page about "obese" people.   I cannot believe some people these days...  Wait.  Actually I can.   People are just getting worse and worse how they treat one another.  But it's not my problem that people have issues with other people and how they look.   I don't judge people on how they look.  I accept who they are on the inside. It's too bad that some people can't do the same instead of spouting off hatred and ignorant remarks about others without knowing their full stories.

Overweight and obese people don't WANT to be that way.  They just get caught up in food.  It's a way of comforting themselves.   They usually have "abusive" backgrounds of some sort.   At least the people that I know that are overweight or obese do.    

For me...  Depression was the MAJOR influence on gaining so much weight since my youngest was born. I felt isolated and alone with only my children as my friends.  One of my friends that I thought that I had, betrayed me, and I could never trust her again.   The other is an active Jehovah's Witness, which I am inactive.  She faces depression as well.   So when you have two people with the same mental illness it's hard to get connected and stay connected at times.      To me,  food was my friend.  Pepsi, Mountain Dew,  chocolate,  cake, ice cream,  anything that was loaded with sugar is what really made me feel good.  It was a sugar high.   For over 9 years I was a sugar "junkie".

On April 27th, it'll be TWO months since I've touched a soda!!   To me, this is a great accomplishment and I'm super proud of myself.

I finally reached the bottom of my self esteem and not wanting to die early leaving my children and grandson behind.   That's what really woke me up.   I don't want to look at myself in the mirror and feel sad that I did this to my body again.  I want to look at myself and feel GOOD that I'm fixing it. :)   And that's what I do now.   Though I have 73 pounds to go,  I know that I'll do it.  I'm giving myself a deadline of Feb. 27th, which will be the one year anniversary of starting this new lifestyle.    Trust me... if this divorced 47 year old mom can do it.  YOU CAN TOO!

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