Hi everyone.
Many of you who read this won't personally know me, but may have heard OF me. Whatever you do, don't believe all you've been told. People like to over exaggerate. - lol
I am a woman in my 40's, struggling with weight issues, depression, and social anxiety disorder.
You may ask, did you always have weight issues?
Nope. When I was a teenager I was 128 lbs. I was thin, fit, and active.
It wasn't until I had my twin daughters in 1995, that I started having weight issues.
Raising five children on my own wasn't easy, especially with newborn twins that you have to take care of by yourself. My marriage with my now ex was completely dissolved, and it wasn't until another 4 years later, that I filed for divorce.
Having the newborn twins, I did all that I could do to stay awake. Including ingesting large amounts of soda and chocolate. :( Course I didn't know at the time that that affected them, since I nursed part time.
I've done MANY "DIETS" before... and I hate that word!! Healthy EATING is what I'm calling it from now on. Using the word diet makes you feel like you're being deprived of something. And on a new way of healthy living, you aren't. If you would like to know what I'm doing, let me know. :) I'll be happy to share with you my strategies. haha.
In 2000, my children and I had to move to a battered women's shelter, because my ex husband had broken a protective order, and was put in jail for 8 months. Without the child support to help pay the rent, we were evicted from the house that we were living in. It was hard starting over in a new city, but we did it. And in the process I lost over 60 lbs. I was within my weight range for my height. It felt GREAT to be back in shape again.
It wasn't until a break up with my last child's dad that left me depressed. Along with the issues that his THEN wife was doing, I started to over eat again. I became stressed out over how she was treating my daughter. I started to over eat again. Eat for comfort. I packed on the weight again...
Back in January of 2010, I lost over 20 lbs, because of issues with my gall bladder. After I almost died of a gangrene infection that had started in my gall bladder, I vowed to get healthy and NOT put the weight back on. The surgeon even warned me that people that have this type of surgery tend to put weight back on. I of course, didn't listen. And I've packed on more than 20 lbs since then. >:(
But let's talk about the present and NOT dwell in the past. :) This is the present and the future and this time... I will be THINKING of my children, and my grandson. They NEED me to get healthy and fit. It's not for ME anymore. It's for them.
I officially started my weight loss program on February 27th, of this year. I got back on Sparkpeople.com, and added my food for the day. It's a great site. Please look into it if you're serious about getting healthy and losing weight. I also gave up drinking ANY soda! For me it was tough, because I was a 2-3 can a day drinker. Now? It'll be TWO months on April 27th since I've had any soda:) I haven't touched a drop. If you really knew me, you'd know what a BIG, HUUUUUUUUUGE accomplishment this is for me. And you know what? I'm proud of me!!! I'm starting to learn to like me again.
Anyways..
I hope that you will follow me on this journey. And I sincerely hope that you will learn a few things that I may post. Take things to heart and get healthy yourself if you're overweight.
Let the journey begin! :)
~Lori
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